Here’s to all the girls and guys out there who used to be their number one. The ones who loved them unconditionally. Through the good times, their mistakes, the heartaches, and the break up. Here’s to the ones that stayed up all night or slept with their phone by their ears, just in case. Only to wake up to an empty voicemail box. The ones that made it through the harsh break up, dried their tears alone, stood back up and moved on with their lives. We deserve something. This is for us.
Here’s to the ones that went through the heartache only to have him/her back again within months acting like nothing ever happened. Those that cried the first time you talked or saw each other again because you knew exactly where it was headed. The ones that listened to them say “I just want to be friends,” one day and the next say how much they love and miss you dearly.
Here’s to the ones that took them back hoping and praying that maybe, just maybe, people really can change. Even though things were bad in the past, this time they would be better. We have all listened to our friends tell us how stupid we are for taking them back, caught shit from our parents, and were made to feel hopeless for loving them.
Here’s to the ones that believed what he/she said. Who sat around all night waiting for that phone call. Here’s to the tears you had to cry and dry alone. The times when you actually convinced yourself that they were “too busy” and couldn’t possibly call right now or maybe they fell asleep early. The times that you trained your brain to believe the lies, learned to settle for something less than what we deserved. This is for the ones that never believed when someone told us there might be someone else out there.
Here’s to the girls who put on their best dress, did their make up, and wore their favorite jewelry only for him to tell you he can’t see you today.
Here’s for the guys who bought her flowers, wore your best smelling cologne, and even shaved only for her to tell you she can’t see you today. This is for all of you that loved unconditionally. Because you couldn’t bear to look back on your life and wonder “What if I took them back?” The ones that loved from the side-lines and wished and hoped they would realize that they deserve you and not that piece of crap they are with.
Here’s to all of you that believed their sugar-coated words. When they said they loved you, they didn’t mean it. The ones that held on to something that was never even there to hold on to in the first place. The ones who couldn’t cry on their friend’s shoulder because they felt too stupid to admit what they were doing. The ones that held it all in when everything came crashing down around them for fear of an “I told you so”.
Please know, that I have been where you are. I have been where you were. You are not alone in this. There is a world full of us and we will all tell you, it gets better. It is going to hurt like a bitch and you will feel like you’ve lost yourself. Because you have. Take this heartache as a lesson and rebuild yourself, one step at a time, to something even better than you were before. Learn to love yourself before you love another. You deserve the unconditional love that you give, in return. You will have it someday. You have to fish through the assholes to find the one who’s been where you are and unconsciously looking for the same thing. For the ones that are searching for love and feel it will never come, stop looking. Love will find it’s way to you, not the other way around. I am a perfect example.
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude. It is not self-seeking. It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves. Love never fails.”
HUGE love and a shoulder to cry on <3 Raychel